I’ve been with my partner almost 8 years , I have a 9 year old who he loves like his own but gosh I was so keen to have my boyfriends babies … I wanted another 2 or 3 kids maybe even another 4 … it got to the point I was on the shower floor praying crying to just be able to get pregnant and have a baby, so I could give my daughter a sibling so she didn’t always feel so lonely and alone, I’ve fallen asleep so many nights imagining my boyfriend holding our baby for the first time and I picture how I would of decorated a baby room and even names, I never imagined only having one child and to a human who didn’t have anything ro do with my pregnancy or birth and I was so excited to do it all with my partner, but I don’t think it’s ever going to happen, and one of the things that is hurting me the most is my daughter she always asks for a sibling and I feel like I’ve let her down and when I see her alone on her swingset I get so upset and feel so disappointed in my body for not being able to do what it’s meant to do and grow the human That doesn’t even exist yet but I already love , how do I accept I won’t get my baby and how do I not let my daughter down I feel so many emotions when it comes to issues with getting pregnant that I don’t even know how to express myself but I feel like there’s a huge chunk of me that Is missing and I want my baby that I have spent almost 8 year’s waiting to meet :( sorry feeling very emotional tonight and it’s hard to say it to my partner without becoming a dobbing mess