Hi everyone..

Where do I start 🤔

I've been in a relationship now for 11 years and yes everyone has their ups and downs but is this part of how a relationship should be???

We both work at the same place and there are quiet a few women who work there.

His always nice to them no matter what!

But.... when I just say the wrong thing he gets so upset with me, walks away and says he doesn't have time for this shit and I'm pissing him off!!!

While saying and doing this to me I get scared of him because he softly shouts and bites on his teeth.

When they work with him they so helpful and so full of themselves but when it comes to me, I get dirty looks, get told what to do and just doesn't help me.

When the ladies talk to him he doesn't seem to have time for me and the ladies laugh so hard and wear short clothes at work (not supposed to) and he is a huge attention seeker because he can't stop being nice, loud and friendly with them constantly!!!! NO MATTET WHAT.

It's pissing me off!!!!!!!! 😭🤬💔

I feel so deeply hurt and angry!!!!!

I sometimes see that when I sit in the office by myself (which I prefer better) that the ladies give me dirty looks and only pretends to be nice with me.

They constantly only try make conversion with me if they looking for him!!!

At times he used to lift the woman at work to where they have to go (on his bike) even sometimes without me knowing about it and he doesn't smoke or speed with them on but with me he does and I told him how many times I don't like it because I'm scared of speed and I don't smoke.

I feel so bad and so shitty!!! 😭😭😭😭

I left my home that is so very very far away to be here and this is how I get treated.

I can't sort things out at work because then others want to know what we talk and then think I'm the bad one (as always what they think)

I can't sort things out at home because then he goes straight to his phone or TV or just ignores me the whole time and sometimes if I'm lucky I'll get a word or 2 out but those words are "Now it's my fault this started.. look how you treat me"

Carries on watching his porn, chats and what have you then still lies to me and says he doesn't go on those things!!!

Where all I do is just try talk, cook, clean, do washing and still have to take his shit!!!

I know exactly what a few comments will be but all I need is some friendly advice please???

I'm already broken as it is please don't bad mouth me 😭💔

Ps.. its my birthday on the 15th of September now and this happens to me. 💔😭