Well there’s a guy who I’ve spoken to through Snapchat a little bit. I didn’t really like him at first until going into my first year of college and meeting him ( we’re in the same year ). I knew he had a girlfriend but he didn’t act like it sometimes.

So we became good friends. Or so I thought. He would do little things like hold the door, hold his umbrella and offer to walk me to the dining hall — while it was raining, holding my hand when I needed help— this is another story, asking if I’m okay, hugging me every time he would leave— those hugs became tighter btw.

All of these actions of him made me think that he was actually into me. So today was the day I confronted him about it. I said “so where are we going we this” his response if that he has a girlfriend- which again I am aware of. He then says I’m beautiful and all that but he has a girlfriend back home.

After that I texted him when he left telling him sorry for making him feel uncomfortable. He says that obviously he wasn’t expecting that. And then says the same thing he told me but then says if something were to happen to my girl friend and I, I would revisit this later in the year.

Okay so am I the only one here thinking that he still wants to be with me?

But then he says that he rather stay friends.

So what does that leave me with?

A night full of tears.

Yes yes, he has a girlfriend. I know, but let me remind you I NEVER LIKED HIM IN THE BEGINNING.

I just thought he was a guy who had it out there for me. Tbh, no guy has ever done the things he has. 2 years ago I was in a long distance relationship where my ex used me over and over so I just thought maybe this was the one.

Turns out, I misinterpreted him.

The crazy part is: that was the first time I had been open to a guy about my feelings.

My RA kept saying that he is leading me on. Is that what he was doing?

Every time we’d have lunch, he would always get nervous, his face would become red.

Trust me! I tried so hard to bury my feelings for me but every time he hugged me, I couldn’t help my feelings.

He told me that he couldn’t do long distance with his girlfriend—- me thinking he was being open to me made me even like him more.

Wow week 3 of college and already I feel dumb.