I’m kinda irritated and frustrated, more so with myself.

I guess this may be more of a rant, but maybe advice is what I need.

My boyfriend put an offer on a house in the city I live. Well we broke up before he actually sealed the deal on the house. (He took another girl out on a date. He admitted to having a crush on her, then said it wasn’t a date, but I felt super weird about it.)

I thought he’d change his mind about the house and stay where he was or find some where else.

He still got the house and moved in. then one day I randomly got flowers.

Long story short, I gave him another chance. But I had already put applications in for an apartment, and he wanted me to move in with him. We hadn’t been together but a few months before. Plus I have stuff his cats could easily tear up on top of being allergic to them. He doesn’t groom them like he should and I have a toddler, I personally can’t handle 3 cats, especially when they aren’t friendly.

He didn’t like the idea of me getting an apartment, but we agreed for it to be 6 months to a year.

He didn’t offer to help with me moving. His excuse “I know how you overthink things and would feel bad if I helped you since you didn’t help me.” Which now I feel the real reason was he was mad I didn’t help because I had broke up with him.

He is now jobless from moving so far and been complaining about not having food. (He has plenty of food when I was over, lots of ramen, canned food.) He came over to my apartment to have a pizza date and stayed the night (which he didn’t even ask). He said he hadn’t ate anything all day so I told him he could have one of my protein bars or something in the cabinets. He ate one of my protein bars which was fine, but then he ate my kids last Jammy Sammy (they’re like $3.50 for 5 of them. They’re my sons favorites. He’s almost 3 and a very picky eater.) and I had so many other things he could have eaten. I made pizza from scratch. There ended up being one big piece left and a small piece (like a few bites) and I was going to put the big piece in the fridge for my son to have for breakfast. My bf asks me if I was going to eat it and I said, no I’m putting it up for my son. But you can have that small piece and some chips or something. Mind you, he had eaten three of the biggest slices. He said, are you sure? And tried to reach for it, and I said yeah, I’m sure. Then I wanted to make sure my son didn’t fill up on his side dishes and snack. When I put those on my son’s plate, and then poured out the fruit snacks, my bf just grabs one of my sons fruit snacks and said “play time tax” like what?! Don’t take my childs food.

I just got an apartment, my son and I are basically on a vegetarian diet due to health issues, and vegetarian food isn’t usually cheap. And my bf won’t go to the food stamp office to get temporary Medical insurance and food assistance. He has two huge ulcer looking spots on his legs, and I told him he needs to get them looked at because they look infected, and he said it’s probably nothing but stress related.

A few years ago, I had a fiancé who brushed stuff off and he ended up dying. That was the most traumatic thing I’ve ever been through. So, I’m low key trying not to worry about my current bf. He knows about all of it.

He did say once he got a job, that he will make it up to me and take us on a trip and a nice date night and what not, but idk.

Part of me wants to end the relationship. But I don’t want to do that, and end up regretting it.

**oh, no, he is definitely not moving in with me. I’m not in love with him. We have not even said “love” to each other. No way I could live with someone I don’t love. I also need personal space. He has bought us dinner and food when we have been to his house. But still, the fact he took my kids food when he could have taken something else just rubs me the wrong way. I would never take a kids food. Especially their favorite. And finding fruit snacks without gelatin or artificial coloring is hard to do and not cheap. So, he definitely lost some respect when he did that.