Feeling down

Anyone else feeling defeated? Been trying for about 2 years now with 2 miscarriages and some chemicals. Every month I get my hopes up and think positive this is the month and every month I end up with these.

It's so heartbreaking. I'm not even sure how many dpo I am. My opk tests said I ovulated early but I'm not even sure at this point. If that's correct it puts me at 12 dpo today. So AF should be here in 1 day according to that theory but if it's wrong I've got another week to go before she rears her ugly head. I'm almost to the point of just giving up. Not sure how many more months I can keep going.