Heartbreaking

You know how each cycle....you log, track, pee, test and always hope that you see those two beautiful lines. Each cycle my heart breaks a little bit more when it's negative. I started my period today It's hard to not lose hope...to not get depressed. I lost my son at 18 weeks gestation due to a faulty malformed umbilical cord. I feel like with each negative I grieve the loss of our son all over again ten fold. I'm going to take sometime away from this app because honestly it becomes an obsession and along with that I become more depressed.