and I can’t regulate or bottle my emotions anymore. It’s been happening all weekend but I messaged my bf asking if he wanted to play Minecraft and vc with me a while. He said “maybe” and when I asked “yes or no?” he answered “perhaps” and then I asked him for a definite answer he said “per. haps” and I just started crying. I just want to talk to him and I feel like he’s mad. He left the chat and I’m stuck on delivered and I can’t stop crying and idk what to do. And now I physically feel worse cause I’m dehydrated and more congested and I’m out of tissues and why did no one tell me this might happen with covid or maybe it’s from the fever idk but mother fucking shit fuck him just say no or not now how’s that so fucking hard? I want to scream but my throat is raw from coughing and I know this is unreasonable but fuck.