Feeling blue

I am honestly so devastated right now I really thought this is going to be the month for me I thought this was it. but I woke up this morning and my period was there to welcome me after being three days late. I was so excited to take a test tomorrow and hopefully get a BFP. I just don’t know what to do anymore I have gone to the gynecologist every month for a check up and see if everything is okay. And I’m constantly told that my Endometrium is perfect my uterus looks good and I’m able to produce healthy eggs. I even got my husband to go and check his sperm count the other week and it came back good, and that we shouldn’t have any problems having children, just like others it may take a couple months. It’s been 6.

I feel like I’ve done everything! I have been working out every single day, I take multivitamins, I buy and eat only healthy food that helps with fertility. I drink 2L of water everyday and I even do seed cycling. I don’t drink or smoke. But today I think I need a bottle or two. I used to spend so much money out of pocket on fertility medication, and trigger shots and my body was reacting so well to it that my doctor didn’t think I needed it anymore. And I pray every single day and still nothing and I just don’t know what to do anymore it’s been like six months!!! I’m just so tired of trying so hard and nothing but yet everyone around me seems to be easily getting pregnant and I have to just sit here and be happy for them, and I am happy for them it’s just so hard to watch everyone get what you want so bad without even trying. I’m so tired of my friends asking me every month how it’s going to the point where I had to tell them that I stopped trying and just waiting for God to bless me but in reality I’m just devastated and embarrassed. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I know it’s not stress because I do everything and anything to distract myself, I puzzle, I do yoga, yin yoga, read books, walk my dog, drink relaxing tea and watch my favorite shows. I hate this so much and I’m in my mid 20’s I don’t understand why this is happening if we are both healthy. I’ll be spending the next couple days crying, and wondering what I could have done wrong. Please keep me in your prayers, Baby dust to all you wonderful women going through the same. Any advice would appreciated.