3 A Crowd?...

Hey ladies, so my partner and I have been together for 7yrs now, we do have kids together 2 toddler boys.

We've had issues with cheating in the beginning of our relationship and did take a break. We worked passed it however and have started to be more open with communication. My partner and I discussed for 6 months prior about possibly opening up our relationship to another person...

Well we did it, we opened our relationship to another girl, I enjoy having someone to hangout with and do enjoy the ability to experiment with a girl as I've been bi-curios for awhile now. My partner loves having another girl in the relationship as well.

However I'm starting to feel insecure and I've expressed it to him and her as well. She doesn't seem to want to do as much with me as she does with him. When we spend time together she does talk a lot about him, his size, and how she can't wait to see him. My boyfriend also seems to be more intrigued in her which I get as she's a new addition to the relationship.. However he's crossed boundaries we set and said we wouldn't cross when we did get to the sexual part of our relationship.

We agreed he wouldn't cum in her as he said he didn't want to do that with anyone else but me but has 3x now... He said he wouldn't tell her he loves her, yet he's told her it the last 2 days now. We've only been seeing each other all for a week now. An yesterday ge brought up wanting to be intimate with another girl with me. I said I didn't want that and he suggested him and the girl we are with now maybe could be intimate with this other girl he likes and wants to have sex with. That hurt my feelings a ton and I tried to talk to him and he made me feel awful for not wanting that.

My boyfriend isn't open to letting me be with other guys at all so it just hurts that I have to be so open or else he gets upset and disappointed when I say no.

The last 2 times we've had sex together I can't help but notice he gives her so much more attention, he looks at her so intensely and he spends so much more time trying to please her.... An with me I just feel like I'm there. Last night I broke down and cried and tried to talk to him and he walked out and went to go sleep next to her as I tried to put our kids back to sleep as my boyfriend and I's youngest woke up and woke up his brother. I put our kids to bed by myself and got up took care of them by myself this morning as he slept clear til he had to leave for work.

The girl we are seeing stopped by and he held her for a solid 5mins and made out with her infornt of our kids, and told her he loves her and misses her already.. Then he gave me 3 quick kisses grabbed the trash set it down by the door to kiss her again and grope her breast infront of our kids and then walked out after telling her bye and calling her baby.

I feel like I'm stupid for being open to this and that I've let myself be used. An then I also feel like the bad person for wanting to call timeout on it all, becuase I'm feeling insecure.

Everything that happens between the two of us me and the girl we're seeing I have to tell him but she told me when I asked about her and him that he's requested to keep their conversations and time together private. Which also makes me feel more stupid and used...