I’m just curious if anyone else felt extra in-secure/self conscious while they were pregnant?

This is my second pregnancy and I’m starting out 40 lbs heavier this time than I did with my daughter. I didn’t really like bump pictures or belly attention with my first either. I’m only 5 weeks so I don’t have a bump yet (except my normal belly flab), but I’m already hating pictures of myself and I struggle to find clothes I like wearing now. At this point, I feel like I don’t even want to have a baby shower or any pictures taken until the baby is born. I can’t really talk to my family about this because they just dismiss it and continue to post the most unflattering pics of me online. Has anyone else dealt with this? How do I get over it and accept the weight gain during pregnancy? I really just wish I would have lost weight before I got pregnant again 😩 I’m not looking forward to this plus size pregnancy…