Feelings for my Sneaky link

I hate myself Bc Ik I can’t do sexual things without just catching feelings I really like him , I hate it he’s being weird now like we’re on two different stages of our life he’s the first guy who’s ever respected me and treated me really well I really trust him it’s hard for me to trust people idk why with him I feel different he seems honest and kind like we’re two years apart , he’s ready to leave for college I’m doing stuff with him partially because I have feelings please don’t be insensitive I don’t know what to do Bc like I’m attracted to his personality and the way he treats me he takes really good care of me after I jus never been treated like this before I hate it here Bc Ik he would never want me jus because of the fact that we’re on two different stages of our life I really like him idk what to do