Hi guys.

Until recently I’d been seeing a guy for just over 18 months. We’re such a good match and just get on so well, I love him to bits.

He’s had a lot to deal with and it’s made things difficult for us. He’s recovering from financial ruin after a business failure so has a lot of stress in terms of trying to find ways to make money. He’s got 2 kids and an ex that can be tricky. He suffers from depression and on top off this, has had to deal with losing 3 members of his immediate family in the time we’ve been together. Literally the worst time a person could go through. All through this I’ve done everything I can to support him and be there and whilst I know he appreciates it, he can’t give me what I need while he works on fixing himself and often pushes me away.

For this reason I decided to step away from the relationship about 7 weeks ago. I’m still very much in love with him but the timing felt very much impossible. He didn’t want to break up but understood my reasons. I’ve stayed strong and not contacted him during this time but I can’t stop thinking about him and worrying about him, I listen to our songs and I pretty much find a million things I want to tell him every day and can’t. I feel so stupid because I haven’t heard from him and I feel like he’s moved on already 😢

I just can’t seem to shake this feeling that timing was just not on our side. Even when my marriage came to an end I wasn’t this upset as I felt at least we had a fair shot and my ex just didn’t want to continue and I had to accept that. I feel like I never want to meet anyone again because no one will make me smile or laugh like he did 🙁

Any words of advice for me? I feel like my friends think I should’ve moved on by now and whilst I’m doing better I just feel sad x