Please tell me if I should make video about this for my YouTube !

So I met my ex boyfriend at 18 he was 22 and were now 21 and 24 . So we met off of tinder of course it’s cursed but we talked on the phone for 6 hours when we first got in contact with each other everything was great we met in person and started hanging out a lot and letting each other know about each other then 2 months later I found out he lied about having a child on the way and a girlfriend. He apologized and said it wasn’t anything like that and he wanted to meet up and talk in person . So June 8th we met up and he kept apologizing and said he wanted to make it right with me and just co-parent with her I was dumb and not even mature enough to leave I got with him and we were together officially and since then it’s been hell after that we moved in together my family

Hated him and and I was soooo deeply in love I decided to pick him over my family but while we lived together he cheated most of the time and was abusive putting his hands on me or yelling at me for talking to my family , so we moved out I moved back with my mom and we got back together a few weeks after that and decided to get our own apartment by the way I lost my car because I decided to stay with him . When we got our apartment things were good but he was cheating on me with his 2nd baby mother when he would see his kids . Fast forward I find out I’m pregnant and he’s 50% happy 50% not I gave him his first son and he was happy to hear that . But again we got in a argument and he took my phone and so he wouldn’t get in Trouble he called the cops on me so I went to jail over night pregnant while he lied saying I hit him now we are separated he isn’t involved with his son at all or interested and now he’s engaged to

His 2nd baby mother . How should I feel ?!? How do I get over it ?!? Why do I still feel like I have to communicate with him ?!?