broke clit?

no judgement please. so i started masturbating at a fairly young age. i started masturbating by putting blankets between my legs and essentially humping them. i would do that while i watched porn and after 20-30 minutes, i would always orgasm. to this day, that’s how i masturbate because it’s a guarantee orgasm. i have tried rubbing my clit with just my fingers, and i have tried using the rose clit sucking vibrator (which makes me squirt but it feels like overbearing electric shocks) and the most it’ll do is feel alright/somewhat good. it never gets me to orgasm though.

well during sex, i notice that my clit does get more sensitive and “harder” when i’m aroused. but whenever my bf rubs it, it either doesn’t feel that good or it kind of hurts? like if he rubs it fast, it’s like a super sensitive “burning”. like the burn you feel when something is overly sensitive? anyways idk what to do. i don’t mind not orgasming during sex because i still find sex fun without. especially since i could always masturbate and make myself cum afterwards. but it would be nice to orgasm during sex and not have to fake it. i just have no idea how to achieve my orgasm during actual sex. i feel like my way of masturbating kind of broke my clit😞