Was it because of me? Or…?

Okay, so I used to date this guy about 6 years ago back in high school. We’ve always stayed friends throughout the years, and have hung out in a friend group when he’s home a couple of times.

Well he’s back home, and hmu to hang out. Well one thing led to another and we hooked up. Which I was not prepared for what so ever, literal jungle situation going on downstairs lol.

Anyway two weeks pass, and he hits me up again to come over and have “cookies” lol.

I agree, but then he tells me nvm he has plans to do stuff with his family, yet when I say okay, he changes his mind and wants me to come over.

So I go over to his place and everything is normal, like how we are as friends, laughing and talking while watching rush hour. Well of course we somehow get to his bedroom to finish the movie. And we start touching ect.

So I go down and give him head, and he’s loosing his mind tbh, moaning my name and rolling his eyes back ect.

Well he grabs me and I flip over for doggy. Literally lasts not even a min and he says I’m going to cum. Pulls out and cums. But I’m not 100 positive if he did or not, I think so, but I didn’t really feel it. He gets up and is like give me a min and we’ll go round two, and then just walks out of the room and shuts the door. And I’m laying there like…. Umm?

I hear him go outside, and then he comes back in a min or two later. He lays down and the touching starts up again. So I go down on him again. He’s semi hard, barley, when he flips me over and tries to fuck me, which isn’t working cuz it’s too soft. So he plops down and says give me a min. So literally a few seconds pass and he gets back on top of me to try, which he’s still soft and once again isn’t working so he’s like fuck I’m sorry I can’t do it and lays down again. And I’m like it’s okay lol. Well I reach down to put my pants on, when he grabs me again. This time he’s semi hard and pushes me down and goes ham. Like a fucking jack rabbit, which I’m not feeling much of anything and in my mind I’m like slow down fool omg haha. Well not even a min passes again and hes back to being completely soft, pulls back and goes fuck it I’m sorry, I can’t do it, I just can’t do it, I’m sorry I’m an asshole ect.

Well now at this point I’m fucking embarrassed and feel like it’s because of me.. so I get up, put my pants on and leave cooly but fastly. And I’m sitting here like was it because of me??????

And then of course we all went out as a group of friends the next night, but we didn’t make it awkward thank god. But I’m just hella insecure now. What do y’all think..?