So I have recently learned more about the LGBTQ+ community upon the realization that the reason I’m not interested in guys is not because I’m not old enough to yet. Which is what I told myself between ages 10-19. Well, I’m 20 now, and I figure if it was gonna happen, it would have happened by now.

I know you don’t have to label yourself or fit into a box, but I’m just curious what label is closest to me.

I think I feel sexual desire/attraction, but it doesn’t seem to be linked to any particular people and seems pretty random. Porn works for me, I prefer solo male stuff, but I don’t really find any of the guys particularly attractive. When I mastrubate, I imagine two other people committing sexual acts, but again, no specifics. No faces. Only the important bits. I don’t really have the desire to have my bits fondled by anyone, whether they’re male or female or otherwise. But I do enjoy imagining giving a guy a hand job or maybe a blow job for whatever reason, (especially edging them). Never done either of those things before (or anything sexual for that matter, I’m virgin), so I don’t know if I’d actually like doing it, but the thought is nice.

I dunno. I confuse myself. Anybody have a similar experience? Anybody have a word for this?