Ok this may be a bit ( probably a lot actually) controversial and maybe it's gonna make some people mad but I really need some help here.

So I'm almsot 4 months pp with baby #2.

Breastfeeding was going kinda ok. I had mastitis twice, he got thrush and then we both got really sick and my supply just wiped out.

I struggled to breastfeed my first and it took a major toll on my mental health. I have a lot of anxiety as is.

I know what helps with my anxiety but I cannot have it while breastfeeding. That would be Marijuana. I feel like im drowning in anxiety and stress.

So I'm left with 2 options.

1. Continue to breastfeed, try to get my supply back even though I know it's going to be a major struggle.

2. Be done with breastfeeding and be able to smoke now and again, which will knock my anxiety almost out of the park.

I'd love to continue breastfeeding little dude. I just don't know at what point I need to prioritize my mental health.

Please, no mean or hateful comments. I'm just looking for helpful advice.