Baby is just over 3 weeks old. Long story short I had a fairly easy labor and delivery & was very lucky baby latched right away. My milk came in in like 24 hours and baby was feeding amazing. My plan was to exclusively BF and pump occasionally to build a freezer supply for emergencies. Well at 1.5 weeks postpartum I hemorrhaged. It was bad and I landed in the hospital for a week, received 2 units of blood and had emergency surgery. My supply dropped significantly despite pumping every 3 hours and my small freezer stash was used up. My bf had to supplement with formula only once or twice because the nurse manager at the hospital let the baby come for a visit so I could have her latch and help my supply. I came home and hemorrhaged again the next day landing back in the hospital. Only an ED visit this time but still hours and hours of no BF, she got some formula while I was being treated. Once home I was back to exclusively BF again. Now she’s 3 weeks old and cluster feeding, typically in the evening/night and I feel like I can’t keep up. I haven’t been able to pump to replace anything in the freezer. I have maybe 4oz. She gets frustrated and I feel like I’m not producing enough to satisfy her when she cluster feeds. my bf watches as we both cry in frustration and will take her and formula feed. She’s satisfied and asleep so I go to sleep. I guess my point here is I feel so shitty as a mom trying to BF. I feel shitty that I’m not satisfying her. That she’s not getting everything what she needs because I’m selfishly trying to exclusively BF. but also shitty thinking about stopping. I wanted so bad to BF and was so excited that it came so naturally in the beginning. I hate the thought that I’m not good enough. Why is this happening? Why do I cry just at the thought of stopping? How do I make it better? What do I do? Do I just switch to formula?