Rant...

So Im a mom of a 10 month old. Im married(to babys father)

But unfortunately, hes one of those that believe that because he works and im a sahm, that he dont have to do anything with our child.. In the beginning, id talk and talk til i turned blue in the face about needing a little help. But id always get nothing. He is a wonderful provider and im thankful i get to be a sahm.

So i just stopped. But i put on my brave face, and have done everything for our child.

I am beyond blessed that I am able to stay at home and raise my sweet baby. But I need a break... Even if its for 10 minutes...

Lately my child has gotten to be alot. Fighting naps so hard like harder than hes ever fought... He wakes up in the middle of the night crying and nothing i do seems to help...

So i just hold him and cry with him..

But i feel like im losing it and myself.. Im so overwhelmed. My anxiety is so bad that my heart is racing and i feel nauseous constantly.

I just need a minute to myself....

I have no friends (not an exaggeration. Literally no friends)

And not really any family that could help (my dad works all the time)

Im just so lost and i feel like im spiraling..