Kind of upset

So I got a faint positive on Thanksgiving day. An OBVIOUS faint positive (even my husband could see it and that says alot). But blood tests were negative and the 4 tests I had taken after that were negative, and sometimes I can't help but feel.bad about the fact that it was positive, and all of a sudden it wasn't?

I thought I was going to have a 2nd baby. We were happy the day before we went to get blood work and when it was negative my heart shattered and all I wanted to do.was cry.

Seeing all of these faint positives and obvious positives makes me jealous. I know I've already been blessed with one baby who.is now 14 months old, but part of me.wants another and still hurts because of what I thought I had 💔

I just needed to rant 🥺