My double rainbow baby was born on our wedding anniversary. I lost 1.5liters of blood and had to go in to operating room twice. I was passing clots the size of eggs. The second surgery was to remove “product of conception” aka placenta was left inside. I didn’t get to watch my baby be weighed or dressed for the first time. I wasn’t present for her shots. My husband had to watch me hemorrhage in the birth room for and hour, maybe two. I’m not even sure. He can’t even talk about it. After first surgery I was sent home and was home one day before I had to go back and have the clots and placenta removed. I felt like I was dreaming when I finally got to meet her, but was unable to hold her for very long due to intense contractions because my body was trying to expel the pieces left behind. Then the nightmare started. All the nurses rushing in and trying to help, doctor scooping out clots. I’m still messed up mentally and physically from it. I can deal with the physical with no issues. I’ve just been taking over the counter meds even after having 2 surgeries and having my insides scooped out for clots multiple times. The mental aspect is killing me. I fear I will have to go back for same issue because when they released me the first time, I thought I was home free. Then the clots started coming. I was rushed back to hospital. This is my third baby and I have never had anything like this happen. On a lighter note my husband surprised me with a “push present”. Poor man had to sit on the sit with his new baby and watch his wife bleed and bleed with nurses everywhere.

Juliet is pretty perfect though.