Please no judgments

So me and my SO did the dance around the last three fertile days on the app and he came in me and we went along with life…I forgot about it this time thinking I wouldn’t get pregnant bc I’ve had 2 miscarriages in the past. So that was around the 15-17th. Fast forward to now my period was due yesterday and I barely have any symptoms…I’ve been having a lot of back pain like catching cramps and sometimes light cramps in my stomach like they don’t hurt bad but they’re noticeable a lil uncomfortable sometimes and I don’t usually have these pms symptoms the cramps yes but worse but usually I get very bloated before my period and heavy sore boobs…but none of that my boobs aren’t sore or enlarged and I’m not even breaking out. My SO came in me probably about 5 days ago maybe and we were ttc but he has a lot going on not that he can’t handle it. It’s just idk if I want to do this anymore I mean I love him it’s just the bs that comes with it. I don’t believe in abortions no offense to anyone who does I feel like that’s a women’s choice.