Feeling discouraged…

I got diagnosed with genital warts in September. Started getting treatment in September. They’re still here. 😪

I’ve been getting the freezing & also just started the cream. I’m seeing someone & I can’t even have sex with him, & I feel so disgusting I don’t even want to tell him. I don’t understand how I even got this. It’s embarrassing. I hate myself. 💔 I feel like they’ll never go away, and I know this HPV will never go away. I’m like this forever. I for marks down there from the freezing.. I feel ugly and gross. 😞 This is discouraging and having to live with this disease & worrying about passing it to my partner then having them have to live with this too is just unfair. I just don’t see a point in having relationships or sex anymore. 😞 fml.