Husband and I not getting along.

I’m due the beginning of January and my husband and I are not getting along. I got pregnant while our first was 8 months old and he won’t let it go that he can’t trust me… he wanted me on birth control but I didn’t want to because I was nursing and didn’t want it to effect my supply.. he knew all along I wasn’t on it… to this day he keeps bringing that up when we fight and that now he’s getting fixed right after the baby because he can’t trust me. I feel so hurt and so bad for this baby. I feel like he’s never going to let this go and I don’t know what to do anymore. He is so mean at times but I don’t ever want to have to share my kids with him… I want them all the time. I’m so scared for the upcoming newborn stage with no sleep and having to deal with him😢😢😢😢😢 has anyone gone through not getting along with their spouse right before or after a baby .