FWB…loneliness

Why is it that every time I hang out with my FWB and then I don’t hear from him for a few days…it makes me sad, lonely, almost in a sad funk?? I hate feeling like this. I wish there was someone I could talk to but there isn’t. My family doesn’t approve of sex before marriage or before being in a committed relationship sooo this wouldn’t be a good thing to talk to my sisters about. We talk about guys all the time and they know about him but think he’s just a friend, not that I’m sleeping with him. I can’t fully talk to them about how I feel about him because then I’d have to tell them how our relationship really is and I can’t do that. So frustrating and I just need to talk to someone!!! haha. My close friends who I would talk to about this also feel the same sooo can’t talk to them either. Just wish I had someone to talk to about these stupid guy issues I put myself into hahah. Thanks for listening…just kind of needed to vent or put this out somewhere.

@G.G Thanks for the comment but girl, I’m very active and have a lot of friends. Definitely not a codependency issue going on. I stay busy—workout daily, hike, read, play the piano, do yard work and yard projects, serve at my church, hang out with friends, and family on and on. Emotionally attached possibly yes…It’s not that I’m “lonely” lonely, but more of a sad/lonely like I know I let myself catch some feelings for him even though I knew I shouldn’t and I know he doesn’t want something serious.

@Ashley Thanks for your comment. I know. I need to let him go. I keep going through the cycle and I need to let him go so it’ll stop and I can find someone who wants to be with me all the time.

@kiki Thanks girlie for your comment. You’re right. He’s not going to change no matter how much I hope for it. I talk myself into not seeing him again and ending things, but then when we talk it just brings it all back and I ended up seeing him again and then I have to start over. I do need to talk to him though. I know that. Just need to tell him where I am and see what he says and end things. Thanks :)