Scared to test again

Carley • Girl mom 💗

Hi guys. This is month 5ish of TTC but not super serious (correct timing, temping, etc). After getting months of negatives, I am very hesitant. Day I am 15dpo and period normally starts on CD 28-30. Today is CD 30 and still no sign of AF. I have had all of my normal cramps and symptoms besides spotting. I always spot a 1-2 before and that’s totally not happening. I had a neg test at 9dpo and 11dpo so I counted myself out. Now I am scared to test again. Anyone have this happen and go on to get a positive?