Weird first time by myself?😭😭

so like,,,???? i have never been laid at all and of course i wanted to try the experience and preferred to be my “first” then anyone else. so i did that with just me and a dildo about like ten minutes ago and i didnt particularly like enjoy it? maybe im not doing it right or maybe bc its my first time or something?? is it just something you grow to like after the first few rounds???😭😭😭 i didn’t really have all the much time to myself with this so is maybe that why? like bruh someone tell me if yall went thru this too or not😭😭😭😭 also i didnt use lube so maybe thats why??