I was abused at age 7 I don’t know if that could be affecting my marriage

So I been with my husband married for 4 years and before I felt pleasure but my husband also doesn’t like to eat women out he says it’s not necessary so that has also mad me consider divorce during sex I no longer connect mentally or physically I can’t feel anything anymore I can’t feel pleasure he says I get wet and I don’t even know if I orgasm he says I do orgasm but I just feel wet and don’t even know if I actually have. He doesn’t know that when I was 7 I was abused by my two cousins that were brothers they got on top of me with clothes on but dry hump me and forced me to perform oral sex acts on them. One of them touched me with my panties on. At age 7 was when I first started to feel sexual feeling that my cousins made me feel that’s why I started masturbating young at age 7 to feel the feeling because it felt could to me but at the same time I knew it was wrong and I felt disgusted when ever I was forced to perform oral acts on them. This is why I don’t know if it’s just because my husband is selfish the problem or past sexual trauma that’s affecting me just now. Me husband also rejected me many times before sexually and I resent him for it. I told him I want a divorce and that he has to understand me that I can’t get horny with him and that I’ve had to fake orgasm sometimes to make me get horny.