Needing to Vent

I just want to say how amazed I am at women who leave relationships and become a single mom. You guys are amazing. I’ve been with my daughters father since I was 18 and I’m currently 23. He has been great the past two years but before that he had strangled, raped, and hurt me so bad. The past 5 months I have wanted to leave so bad. We separated for a month back in September and he made it near impossible for me to be without him. I haven’t had a job for two years since I got pregnant and became a stay at home mom. I applied for so many jobs that month and never got a call back. I couldn’t pay my bills or provide for our daughter by myself. I don’t have anyone to help me with childcare and I have to be very careful in the amount that I would make at a job to receive state assistance. I’m not happy and feel like there’s no way out…. Props to everyone that has managed to do it. I’m sure someday I will…. It just seems like it’s near impossible to get there..,