What is this sorcery

Cevyn

I only masturbate on special occasions when I’m really horny to the point where I can’t focus on day-to-day activities but then after that, I feel gross like I never want to touch myself again. Then sometimes I’ll decide I want to masturbate and then I try and touch myself and get in the mood but I get disgusted and don’t feel any pleasure and I get frustrated. It’s a never ending cycle