I am a stay at home mom to a 4 year old. I had my baby shortly after I turned 18 and moved in with my partner while I was pregnant.

I was never good at making friends in school and I have pretty severe social anxiety that has made making friends as an adult nearly impossible. I also am terrible at typing my thoughts out as you can probably already tell, which makes texting people difficult, I always retype what I'm trying to say dozens of times before I either give up or answer with one or two words. I'm also terrible at talking on the phone, to the point where my grandfather had to call my partner to ask what I was trying to tell him over the phone.

Even though I'm really bad at communicating with people I enjoy being around them. Which I think is my problem right now. I've been a sthm since my son was born and have rarely spoken to people that aren't my partners family or mine since then. It's been so long since I haven't felt lonely and I'm starting to resent the rare occasions my partner spends with his friends.

Typing this all out made me feel a little better but I know it's not the solution I need. Sometimes I wonder if I should seek therapy but we're barely scraping by as it is and another bill is not what we need right now.

So I guess what I'm trying to ask is, has any had any feelings like this and found a way to manage it on their own?