Is it possible to *text* a therapist? Would shitty state insurance cover it? Could i even convince myself to take that step, if possible?

I don't know.

I need Serious help, I want help. And i also am so seriously depressed i can't do anything to help myself. I'm so broken.

I need -want- to get a job. But i haven't spoken to anyone outside my household in over three years now.

The idea of interacting with anyone makes me want to break down crying. The thought of getting a job and messing something up -even something minor- has me terrified.

Ive had nightmares every single night for as long as I can remember. I can't sleep through the night. I wake up every couple hours either so angry i want to destroy the world, or so broken i just lay there falling apart.

I can't take it anymore.

How do I stop hurting?