My husband and I have been married 4 years and together for 6 years. He was everything I ever wanted until we got married. He started to become controlling, emotionally, and verbally abusive. There will be days where he would switch and be super kind. There are times where he was obsessed with my body and then times where he doesn’t want to even touch me. He won’t even look at porn. I have to mother him all the time. Feed him, clean up after him, do his errands while he is at home on his ass watching tv, do his laundry, and etc. Most times he won’t even help me do a damn thing because his excuse is that he always works. Well I work a lot too but still manage to get things done. I got tired of him walking all over me that I finally left him. When I left all he cared about was how he was gonna manage finances since I was the second income. That’s all he was worried about. He wasn’t sad that I left. He was super angry that I was gonna leave him in a bind. Well my dumbass thought I made a mistake and begged for him back and everything. I was in tears and left in the middle of my job to play princess charming and when up to his work and made a fool out of myself in front of his co workers and he would push me away and tell me to go the tuck away. Then I would do whatever he wanted and then took me back. We started to get a long very well. He was obsessed with my body again. We went on dates. He would send me sweet messages and bring me sweet little surprises to work. We would cook and clean together. Dance together. Two months in and he is back to his disgusting behavior. Drinking all the time. Being lazy. Won’t touch me. Won’t help me. Won’t do anything with me. I feel like a roommate and a mother to him. I’ve tried communicating with him but he does nothing but manipulates me and gaslights me. Everything is my fault. He doesn’t even support me. He makes excuses for everything. Back in February of 2021 I had gallbladder surgery and he never was there! Didn’t help me do a damn thing. It was always about him. So I ended up having an affair after affair. I had no one. No family to rely on. NOTHING. After awhile I dropped everything and promised I would clean up my act and that he said he promised he would clean up his act but he NEVER did. I DID though because I LOVED him. Yes, I said loved because I don’t think I even love him anymore due to his behavior and how he treats me. Im fed up and I feel like I deserve so much better! Im so angry with him!!!