TW for some, proceed with caution.

I think I may actually have a panic attack and die.

Were not trying to have another baby right now. In fact we're doing the opposite.

I had our son, our rainbow after 4 losses, about 6 months ago. I have nexplanon and we've only had sex a handful of times since our son's been born.

Both successful pregnancies I've had were horrendous. I was so sick.

I've lost 4 pregnancies.

I'm actively bleeding and have been for over a month.

I'm sorry but what the fuck is this???

Please God someone tell me this is an indent