I’m currently 34 weeks pregnant and I don’t think I have anyone to be there when I’m giving birth.

My babies dad and I have broken up and even before we broke up I knew I didn’t want to have him there, he constantly dismisses how I feel and what I want and I’m a situation that I’m going to be vulnerable in I don’t want him there causing me stress we also haven’t been in the same room since just after I got pregnant without fighting and that included the gender reveal party so I know he won’t be able to put his feelings aside

My mum was my second choice but I soon came to the realisation that it’s going to be a constant source of anxiety because my mum struggles with alcohol issues I wouldn’t say alcoholic per say as she can function without it but she has broken a lot of trust over the last few years and as soon as I think she’s drinking it’s going to immediately ruin the whole experience no matter what

My next choice was my best friend but that soon became unrealistic the more I thought about it, she works 12 hour shifts pretty much most of the week and even if she got off work that day or two she’s have to sort out childcare for her own daughter and I’m her main childcare provider the only other person she has is her mum and she’s very un reliable but say she did get it sorted my friend is completely addicted to her phone which I don’t mind but when we spend time together like maybe once a week she spends almost all her time on her phone and obviously I wouldn’t expect her to not be on her phone at all as I know labour can last for an extremely long time but I feel like that moments when I need support or I just want her to distract me she’s gonna be caught up in her phone and that’s gonna make my mood extremely low

Realistically out of all the people in my life the only person I think I’d be okay with being there and have no issues with being there and that I know would fully support me is my dad, but my dad probably wouldn’t come and be with me and would rather the people mentioned above do it instead

It just sucks because this pregnancy has been absolute hell I have really bad hyperemesis and was constantly in hospital for the first 25 weeks and then when the sickness started to end I was diagnosed with prenatal depression and almost 3 months later I’m still waiting for support with that even though I’ve constantly went on and on at my doctor and midwife so starting my baby’s life by myself feeling like I have no support isn’t going to be great for my mental health

Any advice in general on how I go about this would be greatly appreciated