help I think I’ve been ghosted?!?

baelee • baeeeleeeee

So I met my boyfriend (or ex at this point?) on a game app, we started out as friends, we both had significant others and didn’t really think of each other like that. Months later, I was single and so was he, so we started talking more, and one thing led to another and we started dating! It was going really good. We had some fights but got past them. We both still played the game with each other, but sometimes I noticed he would get on after I logged off purposely which is fine but, he would say he was going to bed and tell me goodnight. I would put my character to rest and he would still be online and I see his character move sometimes. I often thought abt if he was cheating, but didn’t want to overreact so I just let it go. I still think to this day he was cheating. We dated for 4 years without him ever mentioning wanting to hang out. I tried to bring it up and he would just make excuses saying we both lived in different states and change the subject. Plus Covid hit really bad so I didn’t really say anything. Then randomly one day he just stopped talking to me, I tried every way to contact him and nothing. I didn’t hear from him it broke my heart. I cried months over him and I still do. I still very much love him but at the same time hate him for what he did to me. It’s been almost a year now and it still hurts that I never got closure. It feels like I didn’t mean anything to him. That I wasted 4 years with somebody that didn’t want me really. I’ve have tried every way that I know of to contact him and never heard anything.