Officially 3 week since my abortion and everyday has been emotional. I did not tell anyone and this is the first time I’m “saying” I had one. My reasoning was health wise. I found out after I truly had a rough two month so I could not imagine how much the fetal was consuming from my actions. I was 11 week and 2 day. It was a size of a strawberry but it sure rock my body like a watermelon. The procedure was worst but this isnt what that is about. That could be another post. A long one. (Please, if you go through it, feel free to contact me as I did it on my own and did not expect any second of after pain so I would love to be by anyone and everyone’s side)

I don’t regret it as it was my choice and every womens’ choice. I just wish I knew sooner and took care of myself for it to be healthy and have a great mother. And I’m happy to know I could reproduce because I am diagnosed with kidney disease and had a history of blood infection for three month long. Taking so much medication since I was 2 and still on, the doctors told me at 18 that I may encounter fertility issue when I start to think about starting a family. Anyways. I just wanted to say it officially to anyone, everybody without actually saying it out in hope I feel and think about it a little less through the day. Thank you guys for being here.