Just wanna express how I’m feeling

lindsey

I’m sad I’ve been fighting, arguing with my fiancé very often. I know it’s bad for the baby and I’m scared I might have a miscarriage… his son touched my niece a few times.. being inappropriate with my sweet 7 yr old niece. His son is almost 12. I’m so incredibly livid with his son. We’ve discussed that if Matthew ever does this to anyone again, he will have to tell his mother that he cannot see his son again after that. I’m giving his son one more chance and that’s it. So joe would have to chose my our baby over his and that’s the fact. I don’t want it to be the case but I’m not putting my new baby as risk either. I put my feelings aside and I said that his son can come see us on the weekends like he was before in about 3 weeks so my niece can heal, so I can heal. I wanted it to be more time until I saw his son but I had to say 3 weeks because my fiancé Joe literally almost drove himself to the mental hospital over this. And I said 3 weeks because also we would lose our apartment if he didn’t work. I’m beside myself. Sometimes I have to stay at my brothers house because me and joe sometimes can’t see eye to eye and we fight so much, yell and scream and sometimes I don’t think he’s hearing how I actually feel and my feelings. His son Matthew has a learning disability and he doesn’t learn when you tell him what he is doing is wrong most of the time. He doesn’t process what your saying. I know he will do it again. Joe said he will keep an eye on him so it doesn’t happen again, but there’s never any guarantee! He’s in therapy over this… i just hope that works. But if it doesn’t… idk where we are going to go from here… Please if you have any suggestions please help me.. I need some help