I’ve been trying now with my partner for 2 years,

I’ve been tested for my fertility and I am completely fine, as well as my partner. As a matter a fact we’ve gone through a termination when I was 18, because it was just really bad timing for us, and now married and in our 30s we are really struggling to conceive. It’s just not fair, it was so easy when we were 18, and now that we are ready it’s been so ridiculously hard. BFN over and over and over again.

It’s sad, frustrating, and just a constant stab in the heart every month when I get AF.

I’m just praying this happens soon, I just tested this morning at 9DPO and a BFN, I know it’s early but every month I just get too excited over the possibility for a baby again now that we are ready.

I sometimes feel that termination I had when I was a teenager was such a big mistake, it still stings me to this day, and something I don’t really talk about, but it’s hard when that was the only experience I had being pregnant and I struggle so much.

Thanks y’all for listening to me vent some emotions as I sit in my car being all sad.

❤️ Send some baby dust please ❤️