Every day is a struggle, sometimes it feels almost impossible to get up out of bed. I need help with some ideas on how to move forward, to live with the fact the hospital I gave birth to my baby couldn’t even do the basics in making sure she lived. It took these people 20mins to resuscitate and intubate only to stuff it up 3 times. Because of them she was brain dead and could not grow up to have any quality of life. Me and my partner had to make the gut wrenching decision and let her go 4 days after she was born. It’s been 6 weeks and I’m still finding it hard to even call up a funeral place. Just accepting the fact that I can’t hold my baby and tell her how much I love her.

I’ve never liked talking about how I’m feeling and express myself because honestly I fear no one wants to sit there and listen to me rant on because I see it in their face they don’t want to hear it.

Does anyone have any recommendations on where to turn to so I can talk to someone and feel comfortable doing it?