Gender disappointment

I feel bad for even feeling like this ... I have 3kids already 7yr boy 5yr old girl and 3 1/2 boy we all wanted a girl especially my daughter but we got a baby boy my little girl was upset for 5 minutes but embraced it right after. “She’s already planning and talking about her future sisters arrival lmbo #5...... but everyone has adjusted except me . I’ve gotten way better and I started shopping for baby boy I will love him no matter what but it’s still hard . Hubby and I will try again in a few years for baby #5 and will be our last . Anyone got over gender disappointment? What is helping me is thinking of women who so badly want to have children but can’t , that helps me to be thankful for him . But I’m still human . I love him so much though