Grieving

I have never experienced a loss like this. a week ago my elderly dog has passed away. I had him more in my life than a didn’t. he was very sick and the weeks before his death, I cried all the time. when he passed, I cried and then felt numb and like I couldn’t move. it’s a few days later, and I just feel very tired and bumpy. I haven’t cried really. I always thought id be crying like crazy. am I in shock? like sometimes I just stare into the space I never done that before or sometimes I have conversations in my head arguing between him being here and not. I think it hasn’t hit me yet. he was my absolute best friend. I don’t know why I am not crying or something. does my body just not want to believe it? i’ve never been through this before. I keep thinking he’s gonna just come back to me. I also witnessed his death, I was with him through the entire thing. so seeing that was just really traumatic and I feel like my mind is blocking it out. it feels like im forgetting what having him felt like already and it feels like he was just a dream, is my body just blocking out memories from him? I don’t know even know. I really love him so much.

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Hey love!! I saw someone talking about their pet maybe passing soon about a week back- not sure if it was you or not but I definitely commented on it! First of Im so so so so sorry- I know it hurts like crazy. Pets are so special, and we hold them so dear to us. The whole numbness thing is part of the grieving process. And yes, it can definitely be partially your body protecting itself from anInflux of emotions. It's part of the deal unfortunately. Losing a pet can be worse than losing an extended family member because they're almost like your kid. You take care of them, love them, never argue, but they go so fast. Healing will take a second but I know the little guy loved/loves you just as much and is chasing infinite squirrels in the great puppy beyond. Much love to you and the little guy, and I wish you positive healing and growth from all of this. ❤️❤️❤️