so i was talking to this guy, i was 15 and he just turned 18. he had came to my house and on his way he had texted me asking “you ready to lose your virginity” and i said no because i was obviously a virgin and only 15. but then he gets here and we start making out and he starts fingering me really hard and it hurt a lot. he then got lube out and tried penetrating and i was squirming around a lot to get away and was saying that it hurt and i wanted him to stop. for about 5 minutes he tried doing it and kind of held me down and then he pulled out and yelled at me saying there was blood everywhere and that it was disgusting. after it happened i thought i was so cool for about a couple hours after because i “had sex”, but after thinking about it more i kind of thought i was raped or just taken advantage of. but this has happened over 3 years ago and i never confronted him and i never told anyone except for my boyfriend and my best friend.