so i know this is wrong which is why i’m reaching out for advice. my boyfriend and i broke up for a while (we’ve been together since i was 19 i’m now 25 (he’s 27) and i think we just needed that break to kind of do our own thing and i personally have no regrets. i love him very much but we were both in very different phases and being together that young can cause some strains. we were seeing a couples counselor and then i had said i don’t think this is right for us right now. anyway, that was in july & then in december we got back together. we’re fully living with each other again and everything seems good but i’m the one having issues.

i found myself creeping through his phone and that is a hard no. i KNOW it’s wrong. i personally believe it’s a total invasion of privacy and no one should do that; yet i did. twice now. i don’t understand why and i think i’m just starting to feel insecure which is something i used to struggle with back in the day. i don’t want to tell him i snooped because i genuinely feel so bad but i want advice on how to change that bad behavior and what to do when i get that urge. it sucks because i literally feel so self destructive doing something that horrible and i don’t want to do it anymore.