Ready to meet my baby boy

I am so excited to meet my baby boy. I feel bad because I started crying today because I am in so much pain and so ready to be done with the pregnancy and meet my baby already. I have huge thrombosed hemorrhoids and I am in so much pain, my hips, legs and back ache and I have shooting pains in my vagina whenever I stand up. My 13 month old wants me to hold him all the time which is so sweet but I am just in so much pain right now I’m struggling. My vagina is swollen and I have huge stretch marks this pregnancy. Just want to get this part over with and meet my sweet boy. I’m also afraid this painful hemorrhoid is going to burst when I push. Last pregnancy I had a hemorrhoid during labor/ delivery but not like this one 😩 I feel guilty that I feel this way right now but I just pray I get to meet my baby soon and everything goes well 🙏🏻