I'm scared. You?

My first pregnancy needed treated with methotrexate in early November. We've been given the all clear to start trying again but I'm scared. I think the worst bit is knowing that the next positive (if there is one - our first took 10 months) will not be the happy and exciting news it was before, it's going to just be pseudo-denial until I get good news from a 6-week scan. How did everyone else feel when trying again after their first ectopic? If you got pregnant again, was it more happiness or fear?