So I am one year sober from prescription pill addiction & three months sober from cocaine addiction would’ve been one year from coke too but I relapsed in November I still smoke marijuana but I feel that’s less an issue. I always thought I was a functioning addict cause I still worked but now I realise I was down pretty bad. Yes I worked but I would spend my whole pay check on drugs besides the $20 I would use to fill my car up so I could drive around to get the drugs. I would go without food for days cause when I was high on pills food made me sick, I would snort so many pills I couldn’t even move barely keeping my eyes open. I was sexually assaulted twice by people I called friends at the time and my mind was so cloudy I told myself it was okay cause we were all high and turn right back around and party with them again. My life was shit my family was worried about me but I still felt like it was a hobby and hadn’t taken over my life. My reality check came when I found out I was pregnant the day after snorting an eight ball by myself. My baby saved me he made me quit cold turkey he made me find god again. It was hard withdrawals on top of pregnancy hormones all I wanted to do everyday for the first five months was get high but I thought about my son and how I didn’t want to hurt him more than I possibly already had. Thankfully he came out five weeks early but perfectly healthy. My second reality check came a few weeks after my relapse when a girl I called my little is on hospice in heart failure at 20 because of drugs and I haven’t touched the drugs since. The point of all this is just because you’re not dirty and on the streets doesn’t mean your not addict and it doesn’t mean you’re not slowly killing your self I needed to realise I was an addict before I could recover and I hope everyone does the same before it’s too late