Boyfriend of 1 1/2yrs goes to strip club w/o me

So basically I really need some advice and just some clarification that I’m not going completely insane😭

I’ve been dating my boyfriend for about a year and a half now. We’ve been thru a lot together (got pregnant summer of 2021, had an abortion, etc) and I really hold honestly and loyalty highly in my relationship.

Basically my boyfriends group of friends are a completely different vibe than me, and I swear I’m not saying that in a conceited or rude way😭 they’re just very different from me and my group of friends, where his friends the guys are very obnoxious and the girls are kindof white trash.. I just don’t feel comfortable partying with his friends or being left alone because I honestly just have nothing in common with them and just find it so awkward and tiring to try and make the small talk last..

The last 2-3 parties I’ve been to with my boyfriend and his friends I just never had a good night and it would always result in a fight between my boyfriend and I, basically fighting over me expressing my feelings and him invalidating them instead of reassuring me or having my back. (At one party his friend and girlfriend kept peer pressuring me to take multiple shots and my boyfriend joined in even tho they knew I was driving my boyfriend and I home where we live over an hour away from them)

Anyways tonight is one of his friends birthday and he ended up getting a booth at a strip club. My boyfriend only told me he was going to his friends birthday but said he didn’t know what they were doing - come to find out my boyfriend knew along he was just “too scared to tell me” which I think is complete bullshit when he knows I’m very open and honest and try my best not to be judgement or possessive. Anyways he asks me if I want to go, obviously I don’t want to but I rather him go with me than by himself. So I agreed to go since he said his friends are bringing their girlfriends too. But keep in mind he said “even if u were to say no I was planning on just going to the after party at my friends house instead of joining them at the strip club” which I really appreciated and thought he would keep true to this. Fast forward to the day of I’m having really bad anxiety because I just know I’ll have a bad time and the strip club is in a city 30-40 mins away so that gave me even more anxiety knowing if I want to go home early it won’t be a fast trip home.

Basically I was complaining about it, saying how i really don’t want to go and im still debating. He says “if it’s causing you this much stress then don’t bother coming”, even tho I did deserve to hear that it still really hurt my feelings so I got upset and said I won’t go anymore. Meanwhile hoping he’ll say he won’t go anymore he says he is still going. Ofcourse this makes me upset because all of his friends disrespect their girlfriends not only behind their backs but to their faces and also cheat on them… my boyfriend is nothing like this but it just makes me upset that he’s even around a crowd with this type of people.

Hes currently there now and is basically trying to say I have no reason to be mad since I’m the one who decided not to go after he invited me and I shouldn’t be mad he’s going to a strip club without me..

My question is to u ladies, am I crazy? Am I being over dramatic for being upset that he’s still going to the strip club without me? I’m honestly just so hurt and disappointed that I’m starting to doubt if I’m even thinking logically about this situation😭

Any advice is appreciated even the cold hard honesty ones🥲