Hi ladies

So I’m pretty much on the brink of divorce but I just need the final push. My husband loves me and I know this will crush him but he’s made too many mistakes and I just can’t take it anymore. He has anger management issues and will completely lose his shit if he’s really angry and at that point I’m nothing to him. He’s been to a psychologist and was diagnosed with intermittent explosive disorder and is currently continuing his treatment with the psychologist but I’ve stuck by him for 10 years and every time he loses his temper he can be so hurtful and it is absolutely soul crushing. After he got the diagnosis, I was able to be more empathetic but I just think the price I’m paying for this to work out is too high. There was a point where I completely lost myself and cried day and night because I felt like I was losing him and I didn’t know myself without him. I’m not in that state right now but recently he had an outburst and kicked me out of his mums house. I went home and didn’t let him come home so I have no idea where he sleeps at night and it hurts me so much because I really do love him and I feel like we’re supposed to stay by each other’s side in “sickness and health” and technically it is a sickness that he can’t control but it’s taking a toll on me. I know he will come around soon and beg me to forgive him but I don’t know if I can anymore.