feeling so lost

It’s been 2 months since I delivered my baby girl at 26wks via emergency csection… She unfortunately passed away after staying in the NICU for 1 day, due to Covid related complications.. The first time I got to hold her was when she was taking her final breaths. 💔 My original due date is coming up in early March, and I’m absolutely miserable. My heart is so so broken, I just want to give up. I wake up everyday so sad and feeling like I just can’t do this without her.. I feel like I’m being punished by God for no reason. I wake up every morning so angry and sad, I just want ti know why??? Before anyone tells me I need to reach out of help, I want to say I have been seeing a therapist weekly and it doesn’t seem to be beneficial at this point… I just needed to vent.. I wish there was a support group in my town that I could go to and hear other stories and know that everything will get better eventually, but there’s no resources like that in my little town. Here’s a picture of our beautiful little girl..